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My name is Carrie and this is my story. For most of my life, I'd suffered from low self-esteem and depression. When I was 18, I was officially diagnosed as depressed, and my doctor put me on medication. For years I'd tried different medications with limited effectiveness. I suffered greatly, spending much of my time in bed, neglecting my children and my housework and confounding my poor husband.
Two and a half years ago, I read an article about Catherine Zeta-Jones and her experience with Bipolar Disorder, and my eyes were opened. I realized then that Bipolar Disorder was more than I'd known, and that I likely suffered from Bipolar Depression. I began seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist, and was started on mood stabilizers.
My experience with said psychiatrist was negative and so I switched to a Mental Health Nurse Practitioner. For most of 2012, my life was a shambles. I'd ruined my marriage, did many, many things I was ashamed of, and involved myself in risky behaviors. This NP turned my life around. She listened to me, and put me on Lamictal, per my request. She got me to a place with my meds where I felt almost stable, and my life began to fall back into place. My husband and I reconciled, I began to take better care of my home and my children, and I actually felt good much of the time.
At this time, I may be as close to stable as I'll ever get, but I take comfort in the fact that it's better than I was two years ago. I still have my bad days, where I can barely stay out of bed, or my manic days where I'm cleaning like a mad woman or spending too much money, but it's a far cry from the things I used to do before my medication.
I am now an Admin for a private bipolar support group where I hope that, by sharing my experiences, I can help others. I've certainly learned a lot from them, and I value their friendship beyond words.
~ Carrie Montanez